I have always struggled with meditation. I don’t think I’ve ever been able to successfully meditate and the advice that people give me does not work.
I have ADHD (Inattentive), autism and OCD/CPTSD and I can’t stop the constant stream of thoughts, it’s like my brain has a problem with authority and is like “oh, you don’t want me to think? I’m just gonna think even harder” so folks advice of “just quiet your mind!” does not work at all.
The other advice I was given was “just let your mind wander” and that’s not an option either. If I let my mind wander, it pivots fast to dark, traumatic, intrusive thoughts and/or replaying every cringe and embarrassing moment of my life, so up to this point, all of my attempts to meditate have never worked out.
If there’s anyone with similar issues to mine that has been able to meditate with success, I’d very much appreciate some advice to help me along.
I have tried to focus on my breathing and it does help marginally
I’m interested in your technique of describing infinity, what do you mean by “as many angles” as you can?
Like no matter how I try to visualize or comprehend it I can’t, so it’s an endless exercise. Like I’m stuck recently thinking about if I could visualize everything merging together in unity bc it’s really one endless thing beyond description, wouldn’t there still be a perspective beyond that that could see that system as being contained within itself bc it’s a part of itself? What would a single point of awareness that contained everything feel like, all the things and nothing at the same time? Is it even possible to feel nothing if you simultaneously contain all other feelings?
Stuff like that