I have always struggled with meditation. I don’t think I’ve ever been able to successfully meditate and the advice that people give me does not work.
I have ADHD (Inattentive), autism and OCD/CPTSD and I can’t stop the constant stream of thoughts, it’s like my brain has a problem with authority and is like “oh, you don’t want me to think? I’m just gonna think even harder” so folks advice of “just quiet your mind!” does not work at all.
The other advice I was given was “just let your mind wander” and that’s not an option either. If I let my mind wander, it pivots fast to dark, traumatic, intrusive thoughts and/or replaying every cringe and embarrassing moment of my life, so up to this point, all of my attempts to meditate have never worked out.
If there’s anyone with similar issues to mine that has been able to meditate with success, I’d very much appreciate some advice to help me along.
My work did a mindfulness monday through lockdown. I joined one, it was typical meditation. It was horribly overwhelming for me, the more I relaxed the more it felt like my insides were screaming at me.
Im on a group therapy session for autism with my health provider currently. They just spoke about meditation the other day. When they said the word I was like ‘oh no’. But when they spoke about it they said meditation doesnt need to be sitting still and aligning your chakras, it can be anything from walking in nature, to biting a pillow (i might be using some creative license on that second example). Its supposed to be an activity that puts you in touch with yourself, you do that any way that works for you.