So I texted my mom last night that I think it’s likely that I have autism. Then she texted back that she has always suspected that I have autism since I was little kid and that she loves me. I felt very validated and happy that it went better than expected although somewhat upset that she never did anything to help me.
However this morning I woke up to a text from her insisting that I don’t actually have autism and I’m just lazy and over sensitive and that I need to get over myself and I have spent a lot of time crying in bed today.
[TW: Transphobia]
She’s done this before which is why I was so nervous to tell her. When I came out to her as a trans woman she initially said nice things to me, but then the next day she started ranting about “why couldn’t you just be a gay man” or “no one will ever love you if you’re trans.” It took her several years to come around and actually accept me.
All I really wanted from her was understanding, but she just gave me a lot of self-doubt and sadness instead.
Edit: Thank you all for your support, I really appreciate it ❤️🫂
I can do nothing for your sadness but tell you I would feel the same and it’s shitty that your mom makes you feel that way.
I can tell you that you should never doubt yourself though, especially given you have come to accept those things about yourself and you had the confidence to tell your mom, even though you knew what might happen. You’re awesome for making it this far and no one will ever take that from you. Don’t beat yourself up about the response, you have done everything you could and that is more than enough. You’ve done enough thinking on this anyway, I’m sure.
I’m sure things will turn out fine, though it might take a while. But I want you to know I’m fucking proud of you and that’s all that matters.
<3
Thanks ❤️🫂