Happy Birthday, from one old piece of shit to another!

For me it’s not the fun kind of super power, like Spider-Man. It’s more like The Hulk: can’t control when it shows up, can’t control when it stops, can’t control it while I’m using it and makes me do things I normally wouldn’t (like the dishes) and it’s usually fueled by strong emotions then followed by a crash.

I’m not a programmer, but I think I see what you’re trying to do. I have ADHD and less-than-ideal eyesight. This is easier to read, comprehension-wise, in that I’m not getting “lost” in the text and losing my place and having to re-read paragraphs; but the font you’re using is a little blurrier than the default (I think it’s the serifs) and is a little more difficult for me to physically read. Maybe increasing the font size or changing to a different font would work better?

“I can sleep when I’m dead”

If you’re worried about being a lazy pos, then you probably aren’t. If things are going wrong enough for you to seek out a professional analysis, I truly believe that any pysch specialist worth having will try to figure out why you’re feeling the way you are. Even if they rule out ADHD, they could recognize something else is going on and get you treated that way. I hope that’s of some consolation; good luck Internet stranger!