Sorry to hear that! I remember it well, it feels like death. I don’t completely know why mine stopped but it’s been years now and it hasn’t really got me for ages. I’m still sensitive but I don’t get that “I’m dying” feeling any more. I also used to have to sleep to reset.

I got out of a long relationship (13 years and 3 children!) which had run its course and that also helped - we’re much better as friends and co-parents. I’m a lot more stable overall these days.

Wishing you a way through!

Becoming able to be OK - like really OK - on my own for days and days without interacting with any other people helped with this one. I didn’t used to like it but now I can’t get enough alone time - though I have children so it’s basically impossible for now.

Anyway at some point I realised I didn’t give a fuck if someone likes me or not because I’m completely happy on my own for extended periods of time, just being me. If someone doesn’t like me it’s their loss… and sometimes to my benefit anyway because who wants to hang out with a flimsy friend? Go deep or go home, I’m happy on my own so whatever!

I have actually fired some former friends when it became apparent we would be better not hanging out. Make sure you aren’t just hanging out with crappy people? They will drag you down.

I definitely wasn’t like this before approaching my 40s (now in my mid 40s) and was highly rejection sensitive and “nice” to everyone at least as far as 37.

Fuck being a people-pleaser!

Another hardcore way to get to this (being OK alone, thus not caring what others think of you, thus getting over much rejection sensitivity) is to go on a vipassana meditation retreat. 10 days silence, no eye contact, no physical contact etc… it’s about as alone as you can be while not actually being alone. It is both tortuous and amazing. It’s also free your first time, food and bed and everything, not a penny. I’ve only been once, might go again one day but not in a hurry. You will experience all of your unresolved bullshit and there’s nothing to do about it except experience it. Anyway… it shifted a lot for me in a comparatively short time. I realised I was just as fucked up and OK as everyone else sat there, for days until it sank in. That’s not even the purpose of it but just a side effect.

I still smoke weed though… not into “enlightenment” haha except to know there’s no such arrival place, just more of the same. “Meditation people” tend to bore me and I don’t trust people without some obvious vice because it often tends to come out as nastiness if they’re not onto it.

Anyway, I’m not at.all who you’d imagine as the kind of person who goes on a meditation retreat but it was a very pivotal experience for me even though I haven’t kept up a regular practice.

I hope you find some relief from RSD, it is an exquisitely painful thing to experience.

Relatable!

Though I have kids now so I’m permanently exhausted. My brain still has no off switch but falling asleep is easier.

But that sweet sweet sleep of staying up late until I can’t stay awake any longer. Mmm.

I ended up working as a sound engineer due to my propensity for staying awake later than most other people!

Weed, martial arts and making music.

Occasionally shouting at inanimate objects to fuck the fuck off.

Israel is not all jews. Stop conflating the two. Many jews are horrified by what Israel is doing.

Fuck Israel. Fuck Hamas.

I am against ALL genocide without exception.

Not a word of complaint about Israeli 4k livestreamed genocide? Shooting children in the head? Blowing up hospitals? Murdering aid workers? Starving an entire population in an open-air prison?

You could condemn both October 7th and Israel but you don’t. Your “middle” is skewed as fuck.

Your opinion isn’t “radical”, it’s straight up genocide-apologist.

We could change it to being called a Mountbatten-Windsor but that’s a much lengthier way to say the same thing.

Oh I know, just having fun with the optical illusion. :-)

Directly wired to mains electricity? Spicy!

If you don’t mind me asking, are you AuDHD? 🖐️ Or is this an ADHD kinda thing too? 😅

I have four kids - thankfully I’m not in the USA. Trust me here? The meltdown isn’t about the cinnamon toast and neither do you have to buy it. Your own rage also isn’t about cinnamon toast, or your kid - these are the triggers not the cause.

Make sure you let your kids know that you love them and you care. Be on their side emotionally, even as you’re saying no to something. Direct your rage at predatory capitalism for your exhaustion, not your kid! They will forget the cinnamon toast but they won’t forget that you were angry with them if it happens a lot. Your relationship with your children is precious and delicate, and not worth wrecking for any amount of money.

Good luck, you are stronger than you know!

Reverse number the days and count them down until it’s finished? You’re almost done, hang in there!

“How did I just do that?” you may be asking!

Please, allow me to elaborate further:

Like this:

Satire does not require satire these days.

Sorry that’s too much effort!

This is the thing the fascist supporting members of the public need to understand: that everyone gets thrown under the fascist bus and nobody earns safety by cooperating with it. Not even the upper echelons of fascist leadership are safe. Fascism ultimately means that everybody is in great danger of death no matter who they are.

I am really sick of fascism! We haven’t learned the lessons and I’m not even sure we can any more. Human beings have probably been dealing with fascists forever and will need to remain vigilant until the end of time. This year has been educational and not in a good way.

I will die before I will be quiet about it, but we’re all on the list anyway so whatever.

The shitter is that Britain is a few years behind the USA. Tr*mp will be gone, but Britain will continue to elect fascists beyond that. We haven’t even started here yet and we’re the originators of the problem. Ugh!

It wouldn’t have required much effort to determine that effort does in fact require effort.

Unfortunately these things do require more than zero fucks.

Say Cancel now, or remain silent to confirm…

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