Maybe it’s not your thing? IDK, I had a blast playing though those games (HalfLife 2 Episodes 1 & 2 as well,) they’re actually still installed on my PC because I revisit them once a year or so. It’s recommend giving it another spin if you can, there’s a decent story in there.
Have you considered trying out some of the older editions? AD&D (1st edition) tends to be less focused on roleplay and more about cooperative problem solving and dungeon delving. Of course it comes down to your DM and how they run their game. If you want I can post a link to a public discord and you can see for yourself.