Currently trying not to fixate on the past too much but at every juncture it’s been pivotal.
Core memories involve standing up to people more powerful than me whilst witnessing others pretend nothing is happening in order to preserve their sense of normalcy.
Trying to practice compassion for people who don’t/ can’t speak out for the sake of my own sanity and deeply fear being the kind of person who stays quiet.
Head cup and little scratch behind ear. Quality trust time, ignore incidental cat tum for now.
Or it doesn’t escape your grasp but it gets actively ignored by people who see your eccentricities as being indicative that you’re less than them. Including other autistic people.
Just crushed, hurting a lot. Everything is fine I think. My wife and I are safe. It’s rough.
Have a lot of trauma surrounding this time of year seperate to family stuff which is significant too.
I hope everyone in this community is safe. You’re not alone 🖖❤️
Tuvok danced for him on the last episode