Thanks, it makes me so angry being sort of a cast out of society and then you even have to fight to get that acknowledged.

They’re not specialized in atypicals and adults and the result is expected - I’m atypical so they don’t see it in me. However at least it confirmed that in all done tests (4) my values are completely off the normal range aka well in ASS.

Still they deny. But maybe it’ll be a help to get a place for a better diagnosis.

Nowhere regarding the mp3 codec (afaik, of course) there are masses of low wage workers required for data tagging for it to work. So no.

Absolutely. That is by all means not an exhaustive list. The shit pile is much higher than that and I regularly forget half of it.

Oh yeah and long term it will cause a massive issue in the workforce since now the junior positions are basically removed and supposedly replaced by AI (but that’s just a very convenient excuse) and at some point we’ll run out of experienced people.

For this the tech bros envision and sell the upcoming AGI which will never arrive though based on this technology as every expert will currently confirm.

But what do they care about messing it up for all of us, they’re already the richest there are so sucks to be us.

It’s built on ‘slave’ labor, illegal use of content and additionally using unbelievable amounts of power so the environmental concerns go right out of the window at a time where we should do everything to not do that.

Also, AI, even if it’s the currently established term has absolutely nothing to do with neither intelligence nor sentience but is being sold as AGI (overpromised).

This has caused huge masses of investment to gather which will pop at some point, causing all of us massive issues due to the missteps of a few.

Exactly.

Got my ‘diagnosis’ papers from the clinic. I specifically asked for a standardized test and icd diagnosis. Which they didn’t do, essentially ripping me off. The money is lost and I couldn’t yet bring myself to open the letter which can be nothing but disappointment.

I’m also not really old enough, but I thought it was license costs (as usual with Sony).

If you think calling him is the right thing, call him. It won’t be easy (more than a regular call) and the exact words won’t matter but you want to do it.

Best of luck!

The forgetfulness of neurotypicals regarding negative memories.

You see, you/they tend to forget all that negative stuff. We don’t. We keep it almost forever.

So something political happens, or with a influential person or company, or whatever and we look back and say… It’s a trap, did you forget xxx?

Yes, yes you did. And it’s very disheartening. Grifters can gift forever, blind the masses etc. We’re beginners forever as humanity.

Does that mean at some point everything will be asterisks? 🤣

I seem to have struck a nerve there, apologies.

I don’t think it’s a shit example. It’s the latest I experienced. It’s a good game but hampered technically. Nobody needs to tell me, I’ve been gaming since before dos and grew up with it; I’ve also been working in it for a few decades.

Look; you could just have a bigger or more gpus with more ram in a pc but if the end result does not significantly look better the question is for what all the effort is.

And that’s what happened with UE5.

Yes, maybe in a few years it might look different but it’s also been some time and hasn’t really been worth any of the performance impact.

And - as said - I see quality impact in UE5 games which I personally can not comprehend in an supposed upgrade.

However, feel free to disagree.

Maybe it’s my background in datacenters: of course you can always meet demand with more raw power but it’s a losing fight and the intelligent progress is to optimize and use resources in a clever way.

At work? Every shit is a browser app now. Hard to organize.

I really am? (no sarcasm here, honest surprise)

I thought it’s widespread knowledge that the “upgrade” to UE5 mainly brought a lot of performance loss compared to UE4 while having a signature blurry (or whatever) style which actually worsens the perceived quality.

For example expedition 33, while it’s style is awesome, it’s performance is absolutely not. It should run flawless on ps5 and on superior pcs but still doesn’t and the fps range is not in line with the hardware capabilities.

I think I just understood why UE5 sucks that much…

Indeed, technologically it is absolutely possible in multiple ways.

But the tempting possibilities of doing more than that are just too great.

Yes, but with that added layer between both.

These are the hardest discussions I currently have real life. The scale is different.

I think you found the double empathy issue.

And yes it’s not an issue between NT and ND groups, but between them.

I still have this issue on a daily basis with people that have known me for decades. It is the little things, and one side can get angry easily thinking the other is kidding or doing it on purpose.

Hm. I see where you’re coming from. Currently I am really oversensitive regarding this topic because it quickly slips into the ‘It’s not so bad’ and ‘just pull yourself together’ territory.

And to be fair, sometimes that is right. But in general it leads to masking, breakdowns and burnouts which I experienced.

Hence the sensitivity.

I think this possibly makes sense for a Spectrum in general. I would also never want people to treat me over sensitive, either, so there we go.

Being able to communicate was always a great thing.

You can’t, yet.

And that’s what makes it suck even more.

It’s like with all people you just needed to believe that their suffering is real until it was provable. They never got an apology to having to suffer through being blamed as faking illness. And yes, even if faked or just subjectively bad, what’s the point? Why should they make it up?

As an example: I was blamed by my neurologist of faking and whining and a mrt proved I have multiple sclerosis. Yay, I win… I guess??

The point being: this is /autism. If you’re going to blame, just leave. Even if not everything has to be about neurodivergence, here it is.

Apologies for reacting this pissed, but my (energy) spoons are all spent because it’s Friday and was hell of a week to cope but that’s probably also something everyone has to manage…