Europeans saw us that way. If it ever was a ‘bad’ thing, it was because of their elitism. It was a matter of time the reclaiming of our dignity and our validity. Many Americans (continent) did so during their independence efforts (mostly 18th and 19th century). I found this:

In linguistics, reappropriation, reclamation, or resignification is the cultural process by which a group reclaims words or artifacts that were previously used in a way disparaging of that group. It is a specific form of a semantic change (i.e., change in a word’s meaning). Linguistic reclamation can have wider implications in the fields of discourse and has been described in terms of personal or sociopolitical empowerment. (Wikipedia)

Both the psychiatric medication and the mood fluctuations (in this case, from your depressive episode) can alter sleep and dreams. Also, if you’re AFAB, your monthly hormonal cycle can also alter your dreams, especially before menstruation.

Magnesium glycinate, +1. It saves my sleep…

So… I feel like I waste most of my time, but the things I can think of are philosophy and science videos, books, music theory and practice. The problem is consistency for me. Perhaps a group, a class, a club, or something like that if you struggle with it too.