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ADHD friendships can be weird. Sometimes it feels like I am less of a idk support but more like it’s a symbiotic entertainment relationship

I had a near miss during autobahn driving recently and I felt nothing. I remembered it because it was so bizzare. I do feel burnt out from anxiety

There’s another product that probably was this and ended up… somewhat badly. Valve index

It wasn’t bad in itself but the whole vr thing kinda missed the chance for whatever reason and now Zuckerberg took over it mercilessly. Maybe it was naive to think it will ever take hold outside of simming

Still the beginnings were real fun and that valve demo was so real I had panic attack from past me agoraphobia while in tutorial

I just sold my 4090 after playing some latest hit AAA games I didn’t like at all and I play only indies on deck, it’s the best gaming device ever

Also it seems the only games I liked from hundreds of aaa graphics eye candies from recent years are rdr2 and cyberpunk and bg3. I unironically think there are fewer great big aaa games nowadays cmv and I am not planning another xx90 card any time soon

‘Free’ always tastes better. It’s my favourite word. Free. It’s free. For free. 0 dollars. Gratis. Free of cost. On the house. Never had buyers remorse from acquiring something for free

My second favourite is ‘Cheap’

Maybe it would be better for everyone else if instead of online radicalism you would actually do something good irl if you don’t already. I am under impression that many online people are all words but no action.

And there’s is a lot of help needed out there, a lot from homeless animals to elderly. It all runs on heroes.

The talk is cheap but what matters is what you actually do

That’s when it’s time for the evil bitch phase. What you thinking about others all the time has ever done for you? It’s time to stop caring and embrace selfishness. Your evil bitch phase will be normal people mode anyway cause baseline is so skewed towards making other people accommodated. It’s simple and brilliant if I say so myself.
No more eggshells walking

You can theoretically learn it all on your own. There’s no magic barrier that says you can’t. The ”only” problem is motivation and arranging a plan and materials. Is it better or feasible and realistic for just about anyone? Probably not.

Pretending otherwise is just odd. There’s no magic to it. It’s just your brain, material and exercise. It can be plain or it can be fun and hands on.

I don’t know why you suggested that you only can learn algorithms and complexity during formal education but not the hill to die on. It’s pretty simple concept after all.

Aside from again taking my words and twisting them to „formal education is useless and everyone is better off learning on their own” which I never said nor meant. You also suggested that I think some kind of random JavaScript tutorial is what I meant by alternative to formal education which again is your own liberal interpretation of my words and kind of insulting to be honest.

You are fighting the argument I never made and point I never meant which you are by all means free to do so but it is kind of pointless and a bit awkward. But if someone else ever makes it I guess it is just copy paste now for the future heated debates.

Also this is prime example that someone can be well educated but still a bit struggling with reading and text comprehension to the point it is hard or impossible to communicate effectively.

I could just be one special thing then because if I am honest my colleagues always seemed slow and I had to debug their stuff all the time. I didn’t want to make a pointless comment about my subjective singular experience though and hoped it would be more universal

You misunderstood me. All the can’s and some’s aren’t purposeless in a sentence you know. Besides uni gives you other things like friends and connections that are invaluable and motivates you for plethora of subjects you don’t want to learn.

All I said is that unis can feel super slow compared to on your own rate of learning assuming you could find motivation to learn it all on your own.

I once met someone from 3d art program that struggled to make a chess piece in blender. Something that took me what 3-4 days to learn from scratch?

Or also that you could be dropped into the middle of Germany with a dictionary in hand and learn more Deutsch in two months than in 5 years of formal education. (God that sounds like some ww2 operation stuff)

I guess the point is that you learn things you like super fast compared to the average assumption of pace by the course/degree makers and thank god because how else would League of Legends tournaments fit into the schedule?

The pace is relaxing and that’s absolutely fine by me and when you go to a job market you still have pretty big upper hand and use 1/50 of stuff you learned.

But sometimes, sometimes you feel like fuck maybe I should be doing something harder. And „Is that all?”. Cracking decompiled programs in assembly as a kid was harder and much more fun than your run of the mill backend dot net coding that just doesn’t hit dopamine receptors anymore.

It reminded me how much of a time waste formal education can feel. How come we can learn things on our own 10 times faster IF the motivation clicks in

It’s so weird tbh that at some unis they learn things in a year what you can get to know in a week if you don’t follow the slug pace plan and adhd hyperfocus kicks in

I don’t play Minecraft because it is too trippy alone.

I build this Moria kind of place and realize it’s scary to the point I am constantly glancing behind me in the tunnels.

I usually either play games 12 hours straight or not at all (adhd?). They all become slightly trippy but Minecraft is seriously eerie after such time and solitude becomes unbearable.

Idk about love but someone had blood on their face and looked like they just killed someone

Classic self loathing externalised on internet forums

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Mr beast alright it’s in the name

No. You take it in that direction for some reason.

Mayyoo

But for serious bacon and melted cheddar with caramelised onion. Maybe ketchup mixed with bbq sauce near to dip in

One perceives that which they don’t understand as stupid but they have perfectly good reasons for status quo and none of them involve the benefit of the common folk

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