To solve this, I have created an exhaustive and detailed schedule plan that I promptly ignore.

This is the real downside of depression. It like you get no rest out of it even though you are not functioing.

This is my Vibe.

I’m so tired

Replace shame with self love, don’t feel guilty, be kind and forgiving of self, we don’t know it, but when we’re procrastinating, deeper calculations are happening on the risk reward trade-off of said task, reordering of priorities is happening (you will find joy and freedom of utmost importance), granular processing of the environment and system definition is happening, problem solving is happening, there’s a lot going on, all in the background, you can only accept it, feeling guilty or mad is so pointless that’s why it becomes exhausting.

this is real on so many levels